running in circle, trying to catch up with the tail

I’m actually tired of speaking about the truth and truth again but what else can I do, it’s the truth that keeps affecting my daily life.

The truth that I can’t get enough of sounds-so-depressed break up songs, the truth that I’ve lost my appetite for… something I’ve sworn not gonna discuss about ever again, and also the truth that I’ve been living a life full of contradiction.

Okay, maybe it wasn’t break-up songs that I can’t get my ears to stop listening to; it most probably was a bunch of emo songs.

Either way, I’m still amazed by my ability to stand myself being seen in the image of a person who can’t stop talking—or blabbing, maybe. Could you ever stand being known as a person who’s not you? It almost feels like you’re being hardly trusted while you know you can never hear stories without slipping a word to they who should never hear it.

It’s been straight nineteen years, and I haven’t complained about this until now, surprisingly, especially concerning the fact that I complain about anything I do, have, like, and interested into, almost all the time. Ah, this personality I have keeps surprising me all the time, and, seeing that this is the one I should be able to deal with for my whole life, I guess I can’t be tired of surprises. Not now, not ever.

”you don’t, you don’t, you don’t see me… you don’t see me at all”

I don’t do crush, neither love. I only possess, selfishly.

- synta @ 2007-11-24 / 10:08 p.m.

final puzzle

Ah, it has been a beautiful weekend, I must say.

Friday was okay. I can’t recall anything happened on Friday except my big relief for I have successfully finished the killing Technical Drawing assignment. It was a total crap that made me lost my whole sleeping hours for the whole week. And knowing that I won’t be seeing any more of that second assignment made me feel like.. Hueeeehhhh….

It was pure heaven. Now let’s hope we’ll get a fair payback for my one whole week lack of sleep.

The only turn-off I had for that day was he had to attend some early year graduates’ reunion thing in Jakarta. And it was as bad as it sounds, believe me. I hate turn-offs.

Saturday and Sunday were awesome for some reasons so clear that I won’t let myself to tell. Hahaha.

My 7390 is being repaired now and the fierce lady that I’m sure supposed to be nice and helpful said that Nokia Customer Care would have it done by 3-4 days. So, I’m currently a bit off of my social life for I don’t have any of my contacts list’s numbers with me. So, in case you’re trying to reach me (okay, I know how unbelievable that must be, but hey, I said ‘just in case’, many miracles came out from sentences begun with that line), please add your name after the message.

I loooove simple life companied by my humble 6100. :-)

- synta @ 2007-11-12 / 1:01 a.m.

ah, okay

My oh my…

I turned myself into an automatic sleeping machine. Nicey.

- synta @ 2007-11-11 / 12:37 a.m.

won't life wait for me?

What more can you ask from me?
I’m a bad smoker,
but then again smoking’s considered bad for most people in the society
Doesn’t that make me a good person?

Welcome, November… this year left me less than two more months to impove my level of sanity. Yes, that’s why I hate new year resolutions, because I’m a true deadline-er, so there’s nearly no possibility of me doing progressive moves in a long term of time. There’s only ‘done by D-1’.

Is it just me?

- synta @ 2007-11-06 / 8:19 a.m.