i think i accidentally swallowed some acid liquor

No actually, I'm supposed to be sitting on the chair in front of my desk, getting bored and tormented by Chem. But here I am now. Praying for the sake of my national test's result.

Enough about the whole f*cking academic thingies.

My legs are now felt so sore, nearly broken. All caused by the unprepared marathon (or was it actually just sprint?) test to run around the outer circle of my school. When I was in first grade, I could easily just stop running when I reached only one fourth of the track and then spending the rest of the track chatting and laughing and joking with Deeta, and of course, finally ending our lovely day walk with teacher's first class pass to join the remidial club.

Now? Don't even dare to hope.

But it turned out technically good. I mean, at first grade I was spending morelikely 5 minute-ish for running around the school twice. That's practically about 2 and half minutes for a full round.

And today I spent only 1 fify-ish minutes for that one full running. And also being predicated as the fastest girl runner in the group I was in.

Yay! I can actually run!!!

Anyway, the seniority strikes back.

Finally the class of 2006 (yes, my friends) decided to take action regarding the unrespectable first graders' habit at school. Well, I didn't join the yelling and all, because nobody care to tell me about the big event. But hearing the reports from my classmates is enough satisfying for me.

Uh well, you know I lied.

Oh, one of my classmates just broke her relationship. Eew, not so good news to be heared at this time. It really scared the hell of me because I really really couldn't predict that it would actually happen to them. They're one of the best couples in the class of 2006. If it could happen to them, then it could be happening to anyone. Including me.

NO NO NO!!!!

Ah, I still pray for them to be back together again soon. *close eyes and

What a tasteless post.

- synta @ 2005-11-29 / 8:39 p.m.

kill me, love me, hate me, lust me

While she could still make it up for reading some interesting books, I'm always here in front of my personal desk, struggling Physics.

She is abroad, enjoying her 13km walk-for-peace, and I seem like having no time--not even for a simple walk--because I gotta get through some highly-competitive national-ranged test in a few months.

I am nerd. And at some moments, being a nerd is not so bad.

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Sometimes life could be so boring that you can't say it's boring anymore.

I gotta learn to face something less-seriously. This is driving me insane to the toppest part of my insanity.

I am rambling. This is how depressed I am.

- synta @ 2005-11-28 / 7:55 p.m.

why can't we decide everything together?!!!!!

Am I too selfish or what?

Damn.

I hate it when he's way more into his bed than me in a seems-there's-no-end waiting.

DAMN.

- synta @ 2005-11-27 / 2:38 p.m.

blame it to mrs. seth cohen

Since one of my classmates showed me that he got a new CDMA phone, and he kinda hypnotized me to get one too because of the very cheap fee compared to our GSM phones, I've been spending almost 100% of my opportunity to get online searching for the most suitable CDMA phone for me. I'm such a consumtive human being--I know. That's one of the girl's guide to life when they were prepared to be sent to the real world. Or at least that's what I got.

Okay, so now I'm lusting this CDMA phone which Rachel Bilson used in The O.C.'s second season. It was Sanyo 8200. The red one.

Damn, give me a punch because I coudn't find any cellphone stores in Indonesia which have that lovely red flip phone.

Or maybe I could spill this line once again

"Let's trade friendship with those playful phone"

I can't believe what I just typed. Am I that desperate?

- synta @ 2005-11-25 / 8:45 p.m.

hey ho let's go !!

I've been in a very unbelieveable chopping hair session last Friday. It brought a disaster. In-a-good-way disaster.

Take a look at this. This was me before the accident happened.

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And this is me now..

I miss my long hair so bad.. But undeniably it had driven me sick of keep asking for more and more air conditioner. Well, that might seem a little unbelieveable, since I had grown my hair for years and I've always loved the way it look. Though it may felt a little too dry and seemed too messy, but I loved it.

And seeing my hair fallen and fallen and fallen at the salon was making me shaking. I didn't even dare to look at the mirror when the hairdresser work on her razory comb on my hair. The fallen hair of mine was very, very.. devastating.

Oh well, that's not important anymore, I guess. Since now I'm loving my new haircut. And last night when Acil saw it for the first time, he did'nt mention anything bad. So I take that as a statement of a 'boyfriend's approval'. Whatever that means.

So last night finally I met him again after about a week getting busy with convincing myself that sending sms to each other is a good way to keep a relationship going. Well, I couldn't be so selfish by urging him to meet me more oftenly, I know. Because I understand that fresh-collegians need some time to be well-adapted to a college life.

But how long can I survive this I-miss-him-too-bad thingies? Only God knows..

- synta @ 2005-11-20 / 9:27 a.m.

maybe i am a lazy ass, call me a lazy ass, i am a lazy ass, baby

So this is how my first day at school after the long-too-enjoyable holidays went.

I went to school as usual, and be there also as boring as the old days (believe me, it did feel like old days). And at the very fist step entering the darn building's holy gate, I felt this terrible feeling. It was like a whisper. One very devilish whisper.

'If they wouldn't allow the go-home bell to ring early, then why don't you make yourself at home by your very self?'

Yes baby, when the rest of the members of my so-called best public highschool in the so-called this stressful hectic city were busy with those shake hands and apologizes, me, Laras, Didi, Ipeh, Mutia, and Michelle got fully-occupied with manipulating the school's 'satpams' to be able to be out of there a.s.a.p.

I still can't figure out how in hell could I accomplish my very first illegitimate go-out-of-school at the first day of school, and even worse, after a Ramadhan school-break. Darn. I guess I'll be needing a spiritual guidance from this time being.

And when we were making ourselves at home while the truth was we were at Didi's, Ipeh spilled out those words. Those annoying misplaced words.

'Lo pada nyadar gak sih kita tuh sekolah tinggal lima bulan lagi?'

And look what we were doing.

Anyway, after finally got over our guilty feeling, Laras and I went to Gramedia Matraman. There I bought a photo album and a pack of 10 sheets A4 glossy photo paper.

And of course, I made something out of them. :)

Ah my dad is always be one very annoying creature ever alive.

- synta @ 2005-11-14 / 10:10 p.m.

so this is what kept me busy eating the last hours of my holiday

Heyya!

What's changed? What's changed? What's changed?

Enjooy!

"Darn my lovely enjoyable holiday's gonna be over in the next 60 minutes or so. Daaarn."

- synta @ 2005-11-13 / 11:05 p.m.

monkey, donkey, and men are created equals?

I've been having the sense of tidiness for this whole day. I don't usually get along with it. I mean me and putting things orderly, me and keeping my room from having a crashed boat looks, are just so.. so.. Well, let's just say we divorced years ago.

But I guess I had a really real nightmare last night. I mean the kind of nightmare which you don't wanna remember by the time you wake up and you actually forgot it the next morning but it still lies there at the bottom part of your memory and it somehow could bring some traumatic thingies so it does some changes in how you think or do things when you woke up.

I don't even know that kind of nightmare even exists but anyway.. I guess that what happened to me. That's what made me be friends again with tidiness.

So I spent this whole day (well don't take it like I really spend my whole 24hrs, look at me now sitting here in front of the darn addictive display) fixing up the look of my very own castle. My room, of course. It took me about one hour to put things back to the usual order. Yeap, that's how messy my room was.

My point is, when I was doing the big 'renovation' for those, I found out that I had taken so many Adracks. Yes, those postcards we can find and take easily (and freely) from its rack, usually available at some cafes or restaurants or something like that. I have so many of them and I put them in a very very messy way which I thought made them looked so useless.

So I decided to build a crib for them with some helps from the metallic tosca polypropelene ribbon.

And I really did! Look how it turned out!

LOOOOOOVELY isn't it??

It works more or less like a rack, I can easily change the postcards that lie there just in case I got bored. Since me and boredom--unlike me and tidiness--are very long-last friends.

- synta @ 2005-11-12 / 9:08 p.m.

anything started nice shall have bad ends

As I said before, last night me and Acil celebrated his birthday. It was a dinner at Sate Khas Senayan, Kemang because we wanted satay so bad when we were in his car, but what kind of birthday celebration is it if we had dinner at some sideways?

Oh anyway, last night was my treat. *LOL* It was the first time I treated him, after I think about it more. Yeap, so note this: I firstly treat him on a dine when we've been dating for some-teen months. That's a personal record, I guess.

Don't you think it's rude to leave a post of an event without any trace? I think so, too. ;p

Oh we're so silly, anyway.

So after we finished dining we went straightly to Aksara Kemang. I heard it was on sale. The big one. Considering I still had my head on, and it's magically still working properly to keep me sane, well, I decided to buy something there. :) Too bad there were no sale for the CDs or the Prodaks. *sigh* And anyway, the visit last night made me craving for the Lomos so badly. Anyone want to do me a favor? Let's trade friendship with those playful cams. ;p

Anything was nice until when we got back to the car, he complained about his stomach. He said it was painfully hurt because he ate too much for dinner. :((

So that was all how his birthday celebration ended. With a bad stomachache and a crave for toilets. Oh, and he actually vomitted when he reached home.

:((

Fyi, I bought Ha Jin's The Crazed at Aksara. It only need 13 pages of it to make me falling in love. :D

"Get well, honey... :(("

- synta @ 2005-11-12 / 8:59 a.m.

another celebration !!!

Happy Birthday, ACIL!!!

In your very special occasion, I want to make one hope, deeply comes from the bottom of my heart. Semoga kamu suka kado dari aku, dan kadonya bisa berguna, dan ngga kamu telantarkan begitu saja. Amen.

Tonight we'll have dinner somewhere. More stories later!

I looooove him so much!

- synta @ 2005-11-11 / 3:01 p.m.

save the last dance for me, baby !

First of all,

Thx Mrs. Sulis--my 8th grade Math teacher

You Passed 8th Grade Math

Congratulations, you got 10/10 correct!

Anyway, today I went out to do a big BIG search for Acil's birthday which happens to be tomorrow. Yea baby, I'm a bad bad girlfriend. Call me whatever. Anyway, finally I found something which I thought would somehow be helpful for his business nowadays, plus something to make him remember me. I certainly won't tell or give the absolute picture of it, just in case he's somehow had his mind swirled up and checking on this journal.

Oh, Jakarta is back to its usual thingies. Smoky air, hectic, and most of all, of course, our very long-time-no-see traffic jam. Yuck! Well, the traffic jam hasn't been a real pain in the arse but I can see that in few more days, it'd get back to it. Daaaarn city! I'm now thanking God for not letting me get behind the wheels yet. Or ever.

I finally found the cap I've longed for a lifetime!! (you know I love hyperbolizing things)

And also a liquid lisptick with a brush applicator!!

And I am now able to make a corsage BY MY OWN HANDS!!

I'm now thinking to build my own gift or craft shop during my adulthood. Hey, that'd be nice!

- synta @ 2005-11-10 / 21:30

seth cohen made my day

So here goes my description for the best weekend.

In fact, it IS my best weekend for the past months.

The last point really is a huge miracle considering what had happened between us these past months. I guess the incident on Lebaran Eve wasn't really bad. I mean there's always a bright side in every happenings, right?

Oh, I need to add one more fabulous point to the list above.

But here I am stunning desperately in front of my PC and thinking.. 'Am I losing my highschool days?'

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Don't mind. Guess this would just stand out to be another rambling.

Anyway, tomorrow's supposed to be the reunion day for me and some fellas of my jr. highschool. But it turned out that most of them couldn't make it, so we postponed it to some days ahead. Well, never know when exactly it would be, but I kinda looking forward to it. I'm missing them badly.

Apart from the same feeling I feel for Acil, for sure. I think he's enjoying this tormenting moment which kinda frustrated me and successfully turned me into a lazy-assed dork who had spent her living moments by holding stuffed fish which he bought for me months ago. Anyway, we call him Dodong. He's our stuffed child, should you believe it. Like I'm gonna let a fish coming out from my womb. ;p

Talking about him, I haven't found anything to be given to him as a birthday present. It should be given by 11^th this month. It was like.. what, less than a week from now? Ow, crap. I haven't even figured out what to give.

Eventhough he said that I already given him a birthday gift by staying alive.

Ah, honey, don't keep on saying those sweet nothings. *blush*

- synta @ 2005-11-06 / 11:42 p.m.

so i am a sexy good-girlfriend?

One day before Lebaran, the incident happened.

I can't tell the complete story here, since I--myself--really want to erase that day from the deepest memory of my brain and heart. It was too shocking, eventhough I was in charge for the shock.

Since I haven't been really recovered yet, let's just post these nonsense.

Your Blogging Type is Unique and Avant Garde

You're a bit ... unusual. And so is your blog. You're impulsive, and you'll often post the first thing that pops in your head. Completely uncensored, you blog tends to shock... even though that's not your intent. You tend to change your blog often, experimenting with new designs and content.

Your Kissing Purity Score: 74% Pure

For you, kissing isn't a casual thing Lip to lip action makes your heart sing

You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtful But you also haven't stopped thinking of yourself You're the perfect blend of independent and caring You're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

Your Ideal Marriage Proposal Is

Mutual, after a great conversation about your future and feelings.

It's 90% Love and 10% Lust

You and your guy are truly in love, even if that spark seems to be a little dimmer.

You Are Low Rise Jeans

You are both sexy and casual - the type of girl who looks hot without really trying. You tend to spark imagination, only showing a peek of your skin.

You Are a Sensitive Kisser

For you, kissing is a way to connect And you need lot of care, attention, and privacy It may take you a while to kiss someone... But when you do, it's total fireworks

You Can Hang With the Guys and the Girls

You've struck a good balance between girlie and laid back. You can keep it casual but when you dress up, you are as girly as the next girl.

Your Vibe Is Somewhat Sexy

On a good day, you're the sexiest woman in the world But on a bad day, you can't help but feel a little average Try to remember the times you've felt the sexiest... And keep that attitude even on the worst of days

- synta @ 2005-11-05 / 5:06 p.m.

holiday is.. well, holiday

This noon I went to Plangi with my brother. We were formerly went to buy some kitchen needs instructed by my mother one night before. So we went to Alfa and Superindo first, then took our lazy stodgy asses to the lovely Plangi to kill some boredom. Besides, I needed a new casing for my cellphone. The black 'CC cat' casing I had been using for months was somehow.. well, dull and made a little peeky hole between it and the cellphone's body. So well, I decided to buy a new one since I couldn't find the front case of my red original casing *sigh.

Anyway, when we arrived, we decided to take a look on what's on the twenty-one. It was The Legend of Zorro, The Brothers Grimm, and Revolver. Honestly I have this very strong will to take a flirty moments with Matt Damon. But here goes the meaning of hanging out with the so selfish full-of-idealism brother of mine--we watched Revolver.

Yes, the very-hard-to-understand Revolver.

Uh well, I don't mind. It was his treat, anyway.

And so we end our trip with the finding new shell for the loveliest cellphone of mine.. :D I finally chose to buy the unoriginal casing since the original ones were so irrationally expensive. I mean 160 thousand rupiahs just for an everybody's unspecial casing? Hell no. Anyway, the new casing is coloured in blue. The same blue as the 3650's original casing.

Yeah, now you're laughing at me. *sigh

I have no mood in doing anything. I've set the goal for this holiday to eat up the darn 'Buku Soal' but look at me now. Stunning unmotivated and so lazily laid back.

What an empty holiday.

Argh, give me back my boyfriend in town!

- synta @ 2005-11-01 / 9:28 p.m.