go away now

At this point of my life, I don’t see you making anything any easier.

I don’t have time for jealousy and I’ve already got the rivalry more than I ever needed, not to mention the troubles I didn’t ask for. So, if you don’t see me or mind me, I could not care less. Because this one, it’s not even a rivalry. Bah. Not even close.

Well, I’m sorry I’m not you. But I don’t see the importance of being so, anyway.

I have stages to be on, I have stages to manage, and I know you have none. So, you won’t understand, and it’s not like I ever asked you to. But creating one more stage for me to put my nicest act on? God, that just exhausted me more.

Well, speaking of stages…

These R Fake on Tribute to Oasis, last Sunday

If there’s anything I love more than myself, it’s my life. :-)

Hey kau, Jalang, jebak penumpang
Kerjamu hanya bisa mencari peluang

These R Fake - ”Oy”

- synta @ 2009-03-26 / 10:21 a.m.

i missed the map of my piano

Desain Produk Berkarya 3
Yes, the academic works exhibition.

And this is the display of my Chameleoo.

Ah, it’s too sunny out there. :-(

Ganesha Music Event 2009: Harmoni Apresiasi is only less than a month away.

- synta @ 2009-03-19 / 3:17 p.m.

much of a bag of brag

I should better stop my fingers from typing too much and my actions for revealing in the same attitude. Oh well, I never thought being well-understood could be this disturbing.

Hey, sometimes I do feel like I’m wasting my opportunity. It’s not like something I prefer, but it feels a lot like wasting time—you know it’s not all the way right, but you can’t fight the appeals. Now it kinda sound more like doing forbidden sex. Well, I guess doing sins feels generally the same. And the sensation, oh, don’t even tell me that that was not something enjoyable.

But no, I don’t consider this as a sin. It’s a path I’ve chosen, and sometimes it does feel wrong, but well… life is just a bunch of doing wrong things, regrets, (hoping for) rewind buttons, realizing hopelessness, accepting, and then thinking of it as a learned lesson.

I’m as hard as a shell. Stubborn, to be straight.

So, there were times when I was mindlessly young and stupid and having a huge crush over someone. And this morning when I logged in to my Facebook, that someone was on the top of my Friend Requests list. So much for a tribute to my dark age. :-D

Chameleoo will be displayed on Desain Produk Berkarya 3, a regular academic work exhibition by INDDES, along with numbers of Alessi products and it’s just a-w-e-s-o-m-e. I mean the Alessi products, of course, ones I could only see on Google and marker rendering projects. Ha ha ha. Oh, Mr. Starck, you got me to the point where I can do nothing but stay shut… and praying for an internship.

Anyway, I’ll keep everyone posted about this one. Ho ho.

- synta @ 2009-03-16 / 6:31 a.m.

you see, this song is all i have to make me feel...

So yeah, I attended Java Jazz 2009, the first day, but these were the pissing facts…

And no, I did not watch Jason Mraz. Not even for a second. Because the traffic was such a bitch.

And yesterday it still acted similarly bitchy, if not better (okay please use your best logic to define ‘better bitches’). My Cititrans took half an hour to move from km 40 to km 47. It took 4fuckinhours to get me back to Bandung. Oh wow. Oh wow. This really is a long bitchy weekend.

I have been having sore feet every morning when I wake up for the whole week. Most probably because I had to be at campus on 8 a.m. every morning to take a good care of the Japanese who were holding a Bamboo Design Workshop and Exhibition at Galeri Sumardja. And INDDES 2006 was a part of it, so you get the picture.

The best partner in crime on lunch time

And no, I wasn’t being a responsible Liaison Officer for Kanako Maruyama-chan, not even a bit.

March 3 was Aryo’s 22^nd birthday.

And my campus was looking like this…

for the whole week.

So many birthdays, so many celebrations, and (still) so many byotchas.

this one I had been longing to meet for countless length of time.

- synta @ 2009-03-08 / 7:22 a.m.

i can follow all your command

Highlights of this week…

My beloved white bejeweled watch broke her band. I can’t tell you the exact story behind this incident since I, myself, don’t have any idea of any details. All I know is it didn’t only broke itself up; it broke my heart as bad. :-(

And another weekend stage…

It was actually a two-days-in-a-row at the same event, but the pictures of the second day (which is today) are still at Iwan, since he volunteered to help being the photographer (thankkkkkkks, wan!).

After being on stage today, I went grocery shopping (with face fully made-up) at Carrefour. And now I am wishing for a quick deep sleep just to have a slight recharge but no, I can’t have any. Couldn’t even keep the eyes closed for more than ten minutes. Grr.

And for the sake of these couple weeks’ rush, I had been refusing to get any sickness by constantly consuming Decolgen every night before bed. I’d been terrified because last week, everyone I know was having cold. Oh, I can’t tell you how much cold could disturb me. And yesterday I got news that some people caught bloody fever (I mean demam berdarah). Oh, I’ve been there and… Let’s just say I’d rather stay awake for the whole week than risking having it once again. It was… ewww.

Please pray for my health, I’m gonna need it in its best shape until April 11.

And yes, I use baby oil as my make-up remover. It does the job in a flawless way. :-)

- synta @ 2009-03-01 / 6:54 p.m.