did mother ever tell you about the eel in the cave?

Dear, petite brain.

Please start working or I'll be announced dead by the end of yesterday. Do the assignments do the assignments, oh for God's sake START DOING THE HOMEWORKS!

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I gotta say that darn local admission test has succesfully put me up into a brain damage. My mood for school is now gone. Gone - like dissappearing, or went somewhere out of sight. I barely feeling it anymore.

I am typing this and watching Metro TV at the same time. I can see police has turned into mass' biggest public enemy in many places including Papua. Gosh, it must be hard for them - I mean the police. They surely still have a good heart somewhere inside, it's just terribly ended as same as my mood for school - unable to be seen.

Damn, there're so many jobless people around us. I should be very thankful for having wonderfully well-educated parents. At least they won't let me get close to some jobless world - they put me into good schools. It's just me who is too delighted by this easiness. Daarn, how could it be so hard to say thanks, even to our creator?

- synta @ 2006-03-28 / 9:35 p.m.

bloody sacrificing

I've been crying over those sappy love songs for days. Something's wrong with me - clearly - I just don't really know how or to whom I should share this. Yes, it's another him. One of the unnoticed schoolmates. One I never really pay attention to. Oh, OK, I'm starting to be seduced to speak more.

Nothing's so interesting these days.

Last week my class had been scheduled for the yearbook photo session, so we did.
Last Sunday 4 of those 'pejuang bintang merah's joined a try out at Villa Merah anonymously.
And yesterday I put different colors to my braces.

Nothing's so exciting.

Oh, must I count this down?

It's 5 days left to the darn admission test. *sigh sigh sigh

These full of tears days have waken me up to see something truly undeniable. No matter how much love lost, no matter how big my crush to other is, and no matter how I try to avoid, this I love Acil thing would never be able to escape from this little - yet deep - space of myself. It had turned out to be some.. daily dose. Addicting in its own way. And yes, I love Acil.

I'm just not really sure about his feelings. This is getting confusingly unattractive.

Oh anyway, I guess this isn't the first time I babble this much about my relationship.. Or is it?

- synta @ 2006-03-21 / 7:46 a.m.

i always love how God made little surprises in life

Surprisingly, the famous school that has been well-known for its annual habit to get flooded by water, yesterday shown something else as interesting as the overloading water.

Something so.. different in many ways.

Unexpectedly COOL!! :D

It was a lot shocking at the beginning, and the thick black smoke in the bad air circulation made my asthma attacked. I was unable to breathe for some minutes until then.. something else attacked me right on the living nerve.

It's the feeling that told me that the firefighters' cars are totally aaawesome! xD

Uh well,
Call us cold hearted, we just can't stop letting the world see our faces captured in so many different occasions.

And today I went to see how the burnt room's turned out to be. Well, of course it was all black. I saw the 'melted' air conditioner, which happened to be the source of fire. Somehow it looked desperate for me.

Oh anyway, surely I won't let a chance like this flown away.

I am pathetic. But hey, all the members of my school's were joking about it also this day. Just say there's always a lighter note in every incident.

- synta @ 2006-03-03 / 8:07 p.m.