it isn't something you're born with; it's something you learn
Yesterday I had another session of Bintang Merah. It was unusual, because I used to attend the sessions once a week while I submitted myself on the Wednesday and Thursday's class. You know, my very best friend who always pays me a visit most of the time - laziness.
But I was so anxious about what-would-be-the-next-prison-I'm-gonna-live-to-spend-hours-by-hours-studying lately. The will to choose Industrial Design as a major has grown up so hard to resist, while I don't think my drawing skill is good enough. Also Dara's most persuassive words for me that she kept repeating yesterday to attend the same major for years ahead. I want it so bad.. :'(
And because of my killing thought that I'm still lack of drawing technique, I manage few hours this day to sharpen it. It turned out to be not bad enough but still, I can't draw fast. :(
Those were the same picture. I just love the first flower because it looked beautiful (though I still think that the petals are looked more like teeth than petals). And then I succesfully destroyed the beauty by adding those annoying 'rose' letters. Argh.
Hey anyway, yesterday's Bintang Merah's class was full of surprises for me. It was both shocking and amazing how I found out two persons I know at school are attending the Saturday class. One at the intensive program, and the other is on the regular program like me.
They are :
1. My friend at tenth grade, Shalika who is famous for her magical manga drawing skill and was awarded as the 1st winner of Character Design Competition on Schoolympic.
2. A best friend at 8th grade whose beautiful painting jawdropped me when I was invited to her house years ago.
See why I called my self unqualified clearly?
- synta @ 2006-01-29 / 7:45 p.m.
it's something unseen, something unable to be seen at present time
My class is finally turned on. Not in an orgasmic way, but on some "SPMB Ceria" way. And it's totally depressing seeing someone you know never been in the mood for any Physics or Math's formulas - nor Latin names or chemical structures - getting busy with his hardwork on a thick "Kumpulan Soal SPMB" book. It's totally uncomofortable watching the scene with the "unprepared for any national-ranged tests" feels. It's damaging my confidence which I had then.
Well, it's true that I luckily reached the top five rank in my class and beat some other geniuses last semester. But it only happened once, and never then. And truthfully, I've never been totally studying in class for 3 semesters before. I am totally not ready for any tests.
Pantes aja skor tryout gw ngga beranjak dari 41!
:'(
Somebody give me the Doraemon's magic bread, please. Oh please, please, pleeease!
Or at least pray for me.. They said ITB's Architecture's recruitment would only be held once - on the USM, and no SPMB. Damn, gambar gue apa kabar?!!
- synta @ 2006-01-27 / 6:31 p.m.
it doesn't sound like jazz
I've never had the thought of having to wear something I only see on my father's waist to school. And I still think that there's no correlation between wearing a black tut wuri handayani belt and the national rank of my school.
Therefore, I decided to invent a new way to wear belts.
the rebelious one.
"Terkungkung SMU"
Models : Bogel, Onen, Synta
Location : XII IPA D - some room in hell
Photographer : Laras & Mita
I guess I chose the wrong cheapy mechanic to repair my relationship. Now it's nearly broken again. So help me God.
- synta @ 2006-01-24 / 8:05 p.m.
blessed me, blessed me. see it from any point, i'd still be blessed
So my holiday was supposed to be ended by this Monday. Ehm. That means yesterday.
And - praise the Lord up above - I haven't touched the soothing feel of the school's wall. Not yesterday, not even today.
It all started when I was having my second SPMB try out on Sunday. The wide spreading rumour was that the official school day is not gonna be started on Monday, but Tuesday instead. And the reason they whispered the rumour to each other was because all other schools do begin they're school day on Tuesday.
Oh, how can this holiday cause me this much of brain damage? I should've known that I'm spending my teenage years here - in this bloody institution - called SMA fu*kin 8 Jakarta. We don't do those things other 'regular' schools do. We began studying before they even think about school days.
Yes, I skipped school on Monday because I was so dumbly believing the rumour - which I always know wouldn't come true. Not in this century.
And my mood to go to school was so ready last night. I slept earlier to prevent late wake up on this day. I really did. I went to bed on 9.30 PM.
But guess what, everybody, I didn't know that the alarm on my cellphone wouldn't ring when the phone is turned off.
And I really fell deeply into something I've protected myself from - the late wake up.
And tomorrow I wouldn't be attending school for a full day because I have to meet the dentist.
The day after it, I wouldn't be able to go to school at all because I should be ready for my driving license test on 9.00 AM.
So there you go. My official school days would certainly begin on Friday.
Cheers, everybody. Please.
- synta @ 2006-01-17 / 9:05 p.m.
on a long taxi ride
Anyway, Memoirs of A Geisha is a must-watch!
And you must read the novel too!!!!
Darn I'm so damnly in love with Japanese tradition. Aaargh!! Somebody take me to Japaaan!!
- synta @ 2006-01-14 / 9:40 p.m.
pass, pass, i'll pass
So this evening I.. I..
Well, I..
Gosh, this isn't easy at all.. Even now when it's over, it doesn't get any easier.
Uh well, we hung out together.
Uhm.. The unusual translation of the word "we" in sentence above was : me, Acil, and - tam taram - his mother.
I have nothing more to say.
I.. I..
I'm uh..
I'm still shaking.
- synta @ 2006-01-14 / 9:14 p.m.
deja vu seems real - unlike the life of mine
The madness strikes back.
Blah, I haven't touched the depressing feel of controlling wheels for days and last night I dreamed about having the driving license test. This is somehow obsessed me too much. And I've been regularly checking the newspaper (which usually happened to be the most lousy thing to read for me) for the car-offer columns. Blah. I want those sporty 206s. Huhuh.
Anyway,
This holiday is about to end. I now - boohoo. I really want to cry now. There would be no more leisure time for me to spend and I guess I will end up stucking my arse on those thick totally-unflattering 'Buku Soals' for weeks. Oh by the way, my resolution for this holiday to spend most of my free time getting done one of my holy '1001 Soal dan Pembahasan to get to the hell of your choice's is frankly.. SCREWED. And now I probably sure that my future is predicted to be the same. Oh no. No no no.
Hey, my relationship is repaired! Haha.. It feels like sailing a brand new ship now.
And something weird - which I couldn't tell the story here - happened yesterday at Bintang Merah. Am I destined to be.. related to her in some way?
- synta @ 2006-01-13 / 10:22 a.m.
you, me, us - not them
I kinda sure about quitting it now. But here, deep down inside, this living demanding creature said 'NO'. And so will he - I suppose.
Anyway,
I need something to read regularly. So, Rima, Deeta, please please please come back to your blogs and write something.
Yesterday my brother played the Dracula movie on my DVD player. It's a darn disgusting movie I stop watching it when it shows something going on between a werewolf and a beautiful blonde English lady. It scares the hell out of me up until now. Darn darn darn! Annoying brother!
Oh I need to upgrade my driving skill. I think I'm going to have another session with my personal driver this noon. Uh well.. I just hope I wouldn't have to spend another hour at that place again. I'm sure I'm not in the mood for it.
OMG, Eva is the winner of America's Next Top Model's 3rd circle???! I always thought it would be Amanda! Is Tyra Banks somekind of a racist person?? I mean, Yaya over Amanda? Doesn't make any sense.
- synta @ 2006-01-11 / 9:29 a.m.
we can be more but it's certainly easier to be less
I've been having this sickness for days - probably weeks - and there's nothing he did to calm me down.
I truly standing on the top of my patience and I think I'm kinda falling little by little started from today. This urge to get over with this relationship is getting so damn hard to resist.
I want so bad to give this up. It starts killing me. It's killing, killing, killing. It makes me walking but dead inside.
Blah, whaddahell
- synta @ 2006-01-08 / 8:52 p.m.
uhm.. keep it slow
I've been spending four days in a row at PT Hutomus Yokonsa, Kemang. Any idea what place is it? :D
It's a driving course. :D Haha.. Yea mates, I'm now starting to learn how to be a qualified person to sit behind the wheels. Yippeyayey! I was hoping to get licensed soon, but considering however I kept on denying, I'm still a female in gender, and all girls are born with the lack of driving skill (of course, compared to the boys), yeah well, uh.. I kinda have to say that I have no more interest in hoping. :(
Anyway.. yang penting kan tau kapan musti injek kopling, gas, sama rem. ;p Let the vallet parkings do their job. :D Ohoho.
- synta @ 2006-01-06 / 12:09 p.m.
it's new, mates, i'm positive
Oh no.
The calendar on the wall is showing the exact same numbers with ones on my red jacket. 2006. The year I'm supposed to be graduated from highschool. *sigh
So help me God..
Anyway, yesterday my mom threw a BBQ party on my backyard to celebrate the New Year's Eve. The party ended with us watching "Kung Fu Hustle" on TV. What a great great year end celebration.
I don't think I'm in the mood for a long post. In fact, typing these words seems suffocating. I need a mood-booster injection. Now.
Oh yeah, happy new year.
- synta @ 2006-01-01 / 9:57 a.m.
