this is what i'd like to call 'extreme moodswing'

I haven’t shed any tears for a quite while… Not that I’m crying now, though. However, I feel blissful for being able to feel sentimental over you.

Even if you are nothing and neither am I.
Even if you are just a mistake, no matter how I mentioned that you were my favorite one.
Even if we keep it this way as you said so.

Thanks for bringing my :-) back after these long tiring recent days, though actually, all you did was nothing. Just stay there, Friend… Best Friend.

- synta @ 2009-02-25 / 10:35 p.m.

it's been an absurd day, so pardon me

I want to…

> Stop bitching about my exhaustion because no one would ever think of me as someone superior just because I whine a lot.

> Start doing things without putting my feelings and emotions first because there is just nothing good ever come out of it.

> Basically put my head above my heart.

> Be able to do things the way men do.

> Have a clear vision over every aspect in life.

> Lose my weight.

…
I don’t see the importance of putting smiles a lot. It often leads to false direction and I despise wrong impression.

…
I’ve recently made a playlist on my iTunes. Titled: Mati and it consists of: Bjork’s “Unravel”, Mogwai’s “I Know You Are but What Am I?”, and Aqualung’s “Strange and Beautiful (I’ll Put A Spell on You)”. And it leaded me to a conclusion: I am strange, not beautiful… and nothing is ever returning.

…and then ironically, I typed ”ctrl+z” on my YM status bar.

Nothing, nothing is ever returning, my dear.

- synta @ 2009-02-25 / 10:01 p.m.

i <3 mahar, i really do. no, seriously

I want my weekend! I want my weekend! I want my weekend!

Last weekend, These R Fake was reserved to be on stages on Friday night and Saturday.
This weekend had started yesterday, since I don’t have any classes on Fridays, but here’s what has happened since then…
Friday
6:00 > Was ready at Apres to go to Jakarta
6:50 > Departed (Risqi driving)
9:10 > Arrived (me driving)
12:10 > Realized that I lost my STNK and had lunch
13:20 > Continued driving around Jakarta
17:30 > Departed to Bandung (Risqi driving)
19:15 > Took a break and had dinner
19:40 > Trip continued (me driving)
22:10 > Arrived at Bandung

Saturday
5:38 > Woke up
6:00 > Getting ready
6:50 > Departed on angkot due to the lost STNK (unshowered, mind you :-P)
7:20 > Arrived at Salman to join mentoring
8:20 > Got bored
8:30 > Got really bored
8:40 > YM-ed Didit
8:50 > Allowed to take off
9:00 > Went to Apres to meet Mahar for our 10:00 appointment
9:40 > Called Mahar
10:30 > Mahar hadn’t appeared
11:15 > Called Mahar and got answered by his just-woke-up voice
11:40 > Met Pak Sangriyadi
12:30 > Went to Kepolisian Coblong
12:50 > Went to Polwiltabes Bandung

And now I just got back. I even lost my appetite for typing this post. Grr. And I love my iPod. Without her, there’d be no smiles yesterday. Ha ha ha.

- synta @ 2009-02-21 / 2:57 p.m.

stop stop, stop making fun of us

What if I tell you I’m not happy? Will you offer me a cup of happy?

Today I successfully paid my first household bills—electricity and water. Mwahahah. I’m damn proud of it. Hahahah.

And for the great honor of my laziness and laid-back preference style of life, I decided to stick to 20 credits only this semester. Long live education, long live professionalism, long live students in Indonesia. Thank you.

- synta @ 2009-02-17 / 7:02 p.m.