no, i'm not guilty, it's such a pleasure
If you ask me : "Can you live without him?"
I'd certainly say : "No."
In fact, I can't even imagine how this tape of life would roll without him. Call me addicted or anything you want - dumb, fooled, hypnotized - name it.
And that's why I think I should start to apologize to them who I laughed at when I saw their pictures with their couple on friendster which had the oh-so-romantic captions.
I should really apologize when I was laughing at their 'status line' when it was just changed from 'Married' to 'It's complicated' or even 'Single'.
I should really apologize for I was laughing so big that my jaw felt numb when I read the ballad songs' lyrics written on their 'About me' or 'Who I want to meet' sections.
I should really have to ask for apologies before they realized what an evil creature I've been all this time. Before they cursed my relationship to end ironicly.
But really, I couldn't stop it.
Blahahahahahaha.
- synta @ 2005-12-28 / 12:55 p.m.
apologize now, or you'll get your life traded
Is it the time yet to write down your new year's resolution? Damn, I never got one before. Not when I welcomed 2005, 2004, 2003, or others. I'd rather put up my whole recap for what happened in the year that I'd soon wave goodbye to.
So, here it is.
1] I've never tasted the sweet pleasure of being single this year. Except if I'm getting divorce someday next week but I guess that's some kind of impossible. I mean, all this time, I'm the one who put the broke up words out most, and I don't think I'm in the mood to spit it out again this week.
2] My eternal crush went abroad. And by saying "crush", I mean someone whom I flirt to a lot and I've never been flirted back in return.
3] I decided to kill my old blog because of its lack of privacy.
4] Fallen in love to Cafe Del Mar and Tori Amos. One very bad and deep fall.
5] Got listed in the "top 10 students" in my class. Though I just got the 9th position. Hey, it's the smartasses I had to fight with.
6] Got the DVD player!! Nothing more to say. Darn exciting.
7] Finally made my mind up for choosing architecture as my major in university. Of course, only if I could get into one.
8] Well, made "that" mistake. But there's always the blessing in disguise, right?
9] Finally be able to be friends with one of Acil's exes. That's one hella record for me, considering I had been had the big scare, nerve, and low self-confidence everytime I met her. But it turned out, she's kinda fun.
10] Got the opportunity to watch my first ever movie's Gala Premiere. Surely we can easily tell what the movie was. Yeah, say it out loud, everybody! "King Kong". ;p
To be continued.. to my personal real daily journal. No, actually it is a weekly journal, or two weeks journal? Can't tell, I rarely wrote on that. Maybe I should put it to the top list of my 2006's resolution.
- synta @ 2005-12-27 / 8:15 a.m.
they're just a pain in the ass
Haha.
So today I finally get up from bed earlier to catch a Bahasa Indonesia remedial test. My mood was at the top of it because what stroked me to the heart was the 'hooray, my holidays is just few days ahead!' feeling. Well, since everything good always have bad ends (and believe me, they usually come so quick), the feeling didn't stay long. It lasted only until I saw some of the diligent fellas of mine were doing something with their notebooks. And then I took a look to the whiteboard, and there it was the announcement of some of my class' late assignment.
And by the EMTEness of my whole classmates, no one told me any sh*t about assignments, in fact, they told me nothing, while the announcement was written yesterday. I mean, how many of them aren't there yesterday? Now, should I say that this is my own entire fault by not attending yesterday's class--which by the way I have no business there at all??
Darn smartasses. They made me have to hurry back home after spending my oh-yeah-that's-so-beautiful 30 minutes at school to just take my done assignments which I didn't brought to school earlier because I DIDN'T KNOW THAT WE HAVE TO HAND THEM IN TODAY!
Yeah yeah, I just looooooooove my school straight to the bottom of my as*.
- synta @ 2005-12-23 / 12:36 p.m.
i need an endless vacation with cafe del mar
Have you watched "Kingkong" in theatre?
:D
Yap, last night me, my mom, and my dad watched the Premiere of Kingkong on E.X.'s XXI. It wasn't quite a fun, because we sorta felt like we were in Shanghai, or Hongkong, or maybe Singapore--if you get what I mean.
The movie was so-so. And poorly, I must say that Peter Jackson has lost his sense of creativity. There was this scene that bothered me the most which viewed a party of some herbivore dinasours running directless because a gank of raptors are running towards them while they were having their lunch.
Deja vu, people?
Yes, it was almost the same with the scene in some popular dinasours movie--Jurrasic Park.
Now I am so curious, were herbivore dinasours created only to be the object of raptors' hide and seek game?
Anyway, the reason why I agreed my dad's persuation to me days before was because I saw the stars list of the movie. It was "Adrien Brody" which triggered me to come. What a pity me for judging that Adrien Brody was the one who plays Seth Cohen on The O.C.
Ah, darn. Love is blind, though. It blinded me for seeing the differences between "Adam" and "Adrien" are much more than just the letters that stand. It was as pricey as good-look and some ages. Hiks. I should have known that Adam Brody would never play such a movie.
- synta @ 2005-12-21 / 8:24 a.m.
i'm getting sick of these instant mochaccinos
I wasted the whole four hours at school, walking around, doing nothing, buying something, and ended up feeling empty. That was what I got after I passed almost all subjects on the my latest exam. Should I make up something like.. "Okay, I'd never ever make my future exams ended up this way. I should have at least four or five remidial tests on the next week after the exam week finished." Ew.
Anyway, this is what I promised to put up here few posts earlier. The picture of me with my self-designed t-shirt. If you get what the design talks about, tell me right away in the blahbox.
Clue : Something related with Indonesian's band with eighties' songs. :D
Oh well, I bought a girlish top and made up some poses in that this noon.
Well, didn't I told you that it's been a while since my last photo-post? This is what it caused me.
I'm planning on skipping school for some days ahead. Not only to get some more leisure time to spend with Acil, but also to start working properly on those sent-from-hell books. What else would you dare to hope from a graduate-wannabe like me?
Ohohoho, I finally grabbed Cafe Del Mar's CDs! Yippeyippeyayay!!!
- synta @ 2005-12-19 / 6:12 p.m.
get a.. had a.. with a..
Cheer up, everyone! I finally able to post after a week being buried under those sickening textbooks! Ahaha..
Lookslike the luck is staying right on my back for the rest of my exam week. My score are turning f.a.b.u.l.o.u.s! And by saying fabulous I mean it, it really really is unpredictable and unbelieveable.
For example,
On Chem, almost all the members of my class are forced to join the remidial test. There were only three students could pass the test, and one of them is me. To make it even better, I got the highest score.
That's just one very lovely example which I found the loveliest and was able to bring my mood to the most until.. Well, the second last day of my exam week.
We had a huge huge fight which was triggered by something to do with our futural thought--if you get what I mean. It was so badly irritating that I still cried when I read our short messages during that moment this morning. Believe me, after weeks of great laughs and joy and happiness, one very bad fight is the least thing you'd ever wanna see.
Well thank God it is finally over now. Thanks to..
Festival Kemang 2005!
X*
*Hey it's been hella long time since my last photo-post!*
- synta @ 2005-12-18 / 7:36 a.m.
oh no, not this, not now...... not you
Well maybe this just what it would feel like when you've been in a too long lasting relationship with someone, and you're just being so devoted. In a point when you can't lie to yourself or your feeling anymore, you'd feel something that's prohibited by nature.
Anyway,
My school has been one very depressing building ever built since the first time I entered it. The final exam for this semester would be held soon. And by saying "soon" I mean "next week". Yes, just three days left for me to be prepared. Just three days left for me to decide either I would eat those books up and struggle to get what's inside of it to be copied to this petite brain of mine, or just simply burn them to death.
Second choice is always the best. Plan B is always what you rely on.
...
Daaarn!!! Kill my school kill it kill it kill it!!
If I don't update this blog anymore, it means I've already got buried under those irresistable irritating textbooks.
- synta @ 2005-12-09 / 5:31 p.m.
new life, maybe?
I finally printed something out on a t-shirt with some help from "+Lashiano Crew". It turned out cool.. Pictures later.
Today's a family day for us. Went shopping in a full-team to Carrefour Lebak Bulus and then ITC Fatmawati. I got some foods and drinks, some daily needs, some new DVDs, and of course as I said before, a t-shirt with my own design printed on. the trip wasn't so lousy but maybe it's just me couldn't fit in the three of them anymore. Not like how I used to get along with them back there in my little lovely hometown. Years passed and people changed, right?
I never thought I'd be someone who has this imperfect relationship with her own family members. I mean these 'family thingies' never felt so bad until I reached this teenagers time when I happened to be so sensitive--too sensitive, and too cynical with all the things that happen on my surroundings. Including Especially my family.
My mom's habit which used to make me say those "Oh okay, give it to her, it's her, anyway.." now turned out to make me say "Oh okay, here it comes again the purpose of her presence around me--to torture my body and soul".
Get it?
I even have the suudzon to my own mom, the one who raised me and taught me everything I need to know and have to live in this biting real world.
I think I'm gonna need something for the December 22nd event. Any suggestion?
- synta @ 2005-12-04 / 8:34 p.m.
rambling never felt this good
Today is my first day of the period, the day I did my worth-for-weeks-hardwork Chem presentation, and also the day I finally blown out like a balloon being let opened after fully filled with air.
Of course I did the last point in the right place and at the right time. The one hella lovely kaderisasi subsie.
Fyi, it's one of my school's annual tradition. Every freshmen must decide what subsie (subseksi--somekind of extracurricular units) they would join. I'm in Art, and it has been certified as the scariest subsie because of its kaderisasi. Yeap, we--the seniors--love to yell and scream in some scary ways. And we understand exactly how to make it sounds soo annoying.
Oh well, don't take it like I'm one of those seniors who always there in all the forums and always yelling out things like 'Jawab deek!', 'Mana argumennyaaa?!!', etc etc.. I yelled on their mistakes, and I know how that could make juniors feel so depressed and unable to speak anything that crossed their mind. I knew it, because of course I've been there too.
And I'm telling you, one very yelly forum could make a great great side-effect. Now I feel so light, undepressed, I feel like all the weights that's been there on the both of my hands are succesfully released.
Well, I don't take 'guilty feelings' as something really important. That's how bad I need the anger management. Or maybe--as I said before in one of my earlier posts--some spiritual guidance.
Tomorrow Acil will be at Puncak for some sh*tty 'Malam Kekerabatan Elektro'. It was his campus' event, and of course, I'm not permitted to join it in. Argh.. Goodbye my lovely Saturday night. I think God has made His move to make me start working on my soon-to-come exam. Exam. Argh, even typing it doesn't feel good.
Anyway, I was checking my e-mail account at Yahoo which has been neglected for months. I created it when I was at elementary and now it works as a junk collector. Half unbelieveable, a mail from BlogExplosion was delivered to me and the subject made me curious. It says the site has one new game called Shoutbox Frenzy. Hey, that's so close to my current addict on my PC--Pizza Frenzy. So that's why I was so interested to check it out, but up until I type these words, I still haven't found what the hell Shoutbox Frenzy means. So why in the world I care to type this story? ..Don't bother, you know I always be one very pointless creature.
I think I'm in some KBLC. If anyone who's reading this knows what I mean, please keep your mouth shut. I really don't think this one's considerable to be some public's secret.
Oh well, this period's sickness is driving me mad. I always hate the first days of it. I feel like my womb is eaten up. And I mean it from the deepest of my... womb. Damn, would I be able to give some birth? Nataya, would you be real?
- synta @ 2005-12-02 / 6:20 p.m.
