"cheer up," that's why they try to say

I started it with no hope for anything more. I started it with the hope it would be nothing more, to be exact. And so far, that’s what I’d been preventing—for it to be more—until now it goes … far out of control. And it is almost impossible for me to gain my control back.

I’m just trying to get my power back….

Tell me what to do, please. Or at least, cheer me up. Or at double least, try to cheer me up.

- synta @ 2008-08-31 / 8:46 a.m.

a loner?

Few years ago, few days after my brother went off to Solo to enter junior high, I remember myself, facing the beige wall which was full of pencil graffiti made earlier by me, crying myself to sleep. I remembered how lonely I felt, not because the person who was closest to me went out of the city, but just because I thought I was born to be alone.

And I guess that was how it started and amazingly, up until now, I still can’t get myself used to it.

- synta @ 2008-08-16 / 10:29 a.m.

white tanktop on I<3U pjpants * menthols, soon * Kyoto Jazz Massive feat. Chris Frank & Guida De Palma - Shine * better hit the bed soon

she is :
 dyah shinta/synta/sinta * twentyone/female * six piercings * surviving industrial (product) design at ITB, bandung, indonesia * working here, bitching around

craving for :
 good music, movies, books * sex & the city * silver & blue * dancey tunes * fashion (to be watched, not always being followed) * cool girls * skinny body on superfine legs * BMI 15 * online journals * bvlgari black * dark chocolates * mngjeans ('cause it's the only jeans that compliment her figure, by far) * self-upgrading

heartbeat plays :
 cafe del mar compilations * daft punk * bloc party * tika * tori amos, absolutely * garbage * portishead * the killers * the maquiladoras * hooverphonic * the ting tings

reach by :
nastysaint@gmail.com
syncos@hotmail.com
dyahshinta
one two three four five me? designer-in-progress, of course.

waved-goodbye to :
 2005 > "Sept-Oct" "Nov" "Dec"
2006 > "Jan" "Feb" "Mar" "Apr" "May" "Jun" "Jul" "Aug" "Sept" "Oct" "Nov" "Dec"
2007 > "Jan" "Feb" "Mar" "Apr" "May" "Jun" "Jul" "Aug" "Sept" "Oct" "Nov"
2008 > "Feb" "Mar" "Apr" "May" "Jun" "Jul" "Aug" "Sep" "Oct" "Nov" "Dec"
2009 > "Jan" "Feb" "Mar" "Apr" "May" "Jun" "Jul" "Aug"

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final. final.
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"gurly cirl", please contact before copying. title is originally garbage's "why do you love me" lyrics.
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