the sexiest thing is trust
. Seven in the morning and I'm already desperate searching for attention towards this device's display.
. My Windows Messenger's nick has been typed "mata bengkak dan suara berat.memang begitu" since last night.
. I bring my Chem books anywhere in the house but I couldn't concentrate working on those. Even I couldn't assure myself to start concentrating on it.
These only possible to be happen at the same time when you broke your almost-two-years relationship. These are times when I regret anything that happened right before the time we broke up, suddenly remember that there're too much 'souvenirs' left, feeling sorry over those unreasonable fights and crying the 'broke-up' statement back.
The photo album, the pictures in frames, the sweet text messages, the old cell phone which is the same type as his, the self-made snickers to commemorate our first anniversary (did we make it to the second? Oh, yeah, we didn’t), and so much more. Even remembering his face feels hurting.
God, I always do believing that this relationship's gonna be my last. Why don't he?
Oh this is such a damp sappy posting.
"Aku mau ngegedein badan, aku mau nyari uang buanyak jadi ga ada alesan kamu bilang aku pelit lagi, aku ngga mau buka kertas-kertas kecil dari kamu jadi (wish kamu) masih bisa terkabul. All that buat ntar pas minta kamu balik"
- synta @ 2006-04-28 / 7:01 a.m.
it ended
22 months and 3 days.
That's it.
- synta @ 2006-04-27 / 11:20 p.m.
so..
I kinda think I'm single.
- synta @ 2006-04-24 / 9:27 p.m.
few more hours to kill
So I was lifelessly (?) sinking inside this cozy couch with mom's laptop on my lap and VH1 playing on TV when suddenly a familiar voice come over playing with my sense. Oh, it was Tori's 'Winter' with so many little 'sunflowers' dancing. Yayay. I've been having this undescribeable crush over sunflowers since I was still - uhm - with my latest ex. That makes it.. I'm unsure.. three or two years ago. Oh okay, two and a half.
Oh and come after that song, Paula Cole's 'I Don't Want To Wait' and now Jewel's 'Foolish Game'. I love VH1. I love VH1. I love VH1.
Hey, last night I got a needle pushed inside my barefoot. Half of it was stucked inside. Oh, like that's so important.
What's more interesting is that my mom and dad just took off from home heading to Barcelona. Yes, the Spain's Barcelona. That Barcelona. How I wish I were still at tenth or eleventh grade. That'd make these days my spare times so I could go with them spending some money at Spain. Spain. Spain.
Blah, I should stop saying things repeatedly.
Anyway, who's hotter - Thalia or J.Lo? *hakhakhak
- synta @ 2006-04-23 / 5:39 p.m.
work those work these oh God, seriously
Okay, so I want a new CDMA flip phone, new stock for my wardrobe, new hair color, a prom gown, new make-up set, new all-purpose pocket.. Now tell me how to find enough money to fulfill those needs.
And anyway, I've totally lost my appetite for study. Hahah. Same old story.
Ookay, so there's no practical exam today. Yaay! And thank God I have to do no re-test for those practical exams. Fyi, some of my friends poorly had to redo the Chem test for some various reasons including unluckily forgot the exact procedure which said the 'pumpkin glass' we take from the examinator is already filled with some liquor, so we didn't have to wash it clean. Uh well, I know someone who washed it clean. And I still laugh for remembering it. That was - pardon me - stupid.
And I know that the written test package is coming in two weeks. Woohoo! Physics, Biology, Chem, Math, oh long live y'all! Because your existence will bring me to a straight painful death. Fyi, I got the VIP seat for those written tests. Yup yup yup. The front row, everybody. *standing ovation outbursts*
I should've enjoyed my eleventh grade as much as I could.
- synta @ 2006-04-21 / 10:45 a.m.
i learn to lean on me
Okay, can someone tell me one name which refers to 'reliable CDMA provider'? My Esia won't stop delivering me the same text message. Was it Esia or my friend's IM3?
Oh, anyway, here's my plan for my next everlasting long long holiday since I won't be having to struggle those thick yucky books anymore for I have reached my true biggest short-term goal. Oh, just here it goes.
1. sports
2. more sports
3. more and more sports
4. shop!
Haha.
I'm on my plan to welcome myself as a new person as I'm stepping my first move on Bandung. That's one big obsession, honey, but I don't care. Besides, I gotta look good and fit unreasonably perfect inside my prom gown. Ahahah. Yeah. Prom night is only a few more steps to dance.
Moreover,
I need to breathe beach's breeze.
- synta @ 2006-04-20 / 6:53 a.m.
a 'no' between too many 'yes'
So the good thing has already brought out its bad side. I should've predicted this long before. I was just too delighted by the feeling that I've truly reached my biggest short-term goal.
I've been there twice. I've experienced its ups and downs. I've been the one who did it, and I've also been the victim. So why should this bother me this much? God surely has His own plan, and I always believe that any things happened because God knows it was the best to be happened on us. So what really is the matter?
Ah, anyway.
I remembered few months ago I was still busy ensuring people that my next stop should be at ITB's Architecture Faculty. Now I have to deal with people who are looking at me, saying things like "Oh, she wasn't qualified enough to study Architecture. I'm sure now she's just pretending to be happy to be declared as a future student of Product Design."
..
Whatever you say, dudes. I'm not buying.
And…
This morning my mom asked me this question while we were having noodles as breakfast:
"What if someone asked you 'why did you choose majoring design? Considering your ability in science, I really think that's one big mistake you've done there'"
I answered her:
*with a mouth full of yellowish noodles
"Mom, I really don't want to be a 'kufur nikmat' kind of person. God has made His choice for me and I trust Him. And whatever I choose, whatever I do, I did it through a very deep thinking. And it has leaded me to this. This is what I really want."
Oh, almost forgot. I was babbling about long distance relationship in the first two pharagraphs. See why I'm being deadly desperate?
- synta @ 2006-04-15 / 10:01 p.m.
i don't give a if you lookin at my
Big deal.
No.
WOOO-HOOO!
Damn, I love life!
*fly away to dance with the night's light
fyi, I stated Product Design as my first choice. What a.. What a..
GOD, I'M SPEECHLEEEESSS!!!
This is so amaazing!
- synta @ 2006-04-13 / 8:49 p.m.
