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- synta @ 2005-10-31 / 11:02 a.m.

this hatred i feel

Yesterday finally he reached me by phone. Listening to his voice talking so softly made me couldn't hold this sorrow any longer. I actually cried after whispering

"I needed you.. But you weren't there.."

That was how cheesy yesterday's conversation. It was full of tears and apologizes at the beginning but ended with lots of laughs. It was lovely, anyway. Considering we haven't been able to reach each other for days. No sms. Nor calls. Nor meetings.

Anyway, this is my current addict.

:D *off to struggle for the corners*

- synta @ 2005-10-31 / 10:07 a.m.

how life could be good and bad at almost the same time

It seems like I'm having an annoyed, highly polluted life. Oh well, who cares anyway?

The fastbreakings I told on my last post unfortunately went on without me. I couldn't possibly attend the XII IPA D's and XI IPA D's but I finally made it for the X-E's. And I am satisfy enough.

Started with a dine at Lomo Como (or something sounds like that-I don't really remember) which happened to be the time when I realized that most of my ex-classmates are really one of a kind. I kinda miss our days back there when we were spending our first year as freshmen in the holy hell of SMA N 8 Jakarta.

Oh well..

I sat side-by-side with my lovely ex-deskmate at the eleventh grade-Nyta and my best ride to anywhere-Dissa. I reserved a Hawaiian fried rice and a tall glass of ice lemon tea. Kinda make my apetite grew much hardy because it was well-served about 10 or 15 minutes to the bedug Maghrib. It was some tormenting minutes I've got to kill then.

After finishing our dinner at 6.30 something, some of us eagered to do some karaoke. Yes, that karaoke with you and your friends sitting on a couch, with two microphones, with a big-screen tv, and some of your friends (and sometimes happened to be yourself) singing confidently even with their so-so mistuned-voice.

Okay, I was talking about myself on the last point.

Shortly, we went to Inulvizzsta to reserve a 15-people-sized room (completed with a single toilet inside), and started singing incorrectly. So fun.

And after used up our limited one hour session of singing pointlessly (I sang 'Because Of You' in a duet with Nyta :D), we decided to went down to the freshly launched Gramedia Bookstore. I bought Alberthiene Endah's Jangan Beri Aku Narkoba... and Sitta Karina's Imaji Terindah. Both are lovely, and 'Jangan Beri Aku Narkoba...' is somewhat exceptional. I started to love Alberthiene Endah's writing more and more.

And this is the only picture I have from the event.

It was captured by Primo's nice-resolutioned-cameraphone.

And yesterday was-ofcourse-a lousy session with the BTA group again. Fortunately, the lecturer for Math session wasn't the same boring person. He was more attractive and so interested in us. Ah, I don't even know how to describe but when you are enjoying what you're doing, you could be somehow making people around you got interested in what you're doing too. That may be the right line to describe what happened on my class yesterday.

...

But last night was a bit too hard for me. It was a lonely night, eventhough all my family members are now gathering in this same house. But that's what always get me to the toppest of my loneliness, isn't it? I was alone and left-out. I am. So left-out.

And considering yourself is there just to turn the completeness into something incomplete was really really a damn hurting circumstances.

I mean it.

Sometimes I just thinking more about suicidal things. And I did took some chemical liquid into my digestion. But look at me now, I'm fine and I'm breathing.

Sometimes I just couldn't understand God's will in my life. How it could work on keeping me walking while the truth is I'm dying.

Ah, what the hell am I rambling about? Nobody would even pay attention to these.

Damn I'm depressed.

- synta @ 2005-10-30 / 10:59 a.m.

dreaming about being stalked?

I've been forgetting the sitemeter for a while and when I checked upon it just few minutes ago, I'm surprised by a visit.

It referred from Google.
And it searched for 'synta+acil'.

Do this relationship which I am in really bothers you that much? OMG, please, okay, whoever you are, please just convince me that you won't make me have to move this diary to something new again. If you think stalking over me felt fun for you, or maybe stalking over my relationship is somewhat could bring your happiness alive, whatever it is, pls stop it. I mean it.

Anyway

My household's assistant is now making herself busy inside my kitchen to make my gas stove working properly. And seeing someone working on something that could be killing is really getting me on the toppest part of my fear. Everybody knows that high-pressured gas could be killing, right? And I just don't want to eyewitness a painful dead by myself. So I decided to just play-don't-care. Or play-don't-know.

And I've been sleeping with my Mom and Dad for two nights in a row. Dammit. This is all because of the nightmares I had for two sleeps. Once when I was sleeping at night which brought me to a waking up at 12 a.m. (just imagine yourself how scared I was), and the other one was when I took a nap yesterday. The first nightmare is about some devilish genie who was staying inside my room, somewehre near my desk. Dammit, I'm so scared. The second one was about one of my doll coming alive. More or less reminds me of The Bride of Chucky.

And in the nightmares, I dreamed of me kept on repeating the holy Ayat Kursi to exorcise them.

...

To think again,
maybe being stalked isn't that bad.

Uh, well.. You, who-had-searched-for-'synta+acil' just go on. Maybe I'll try to enjoy whatever you had or will do.

Well,
Peace out.

- synta @ 2005-10-27 / 9:04 a.m.

the punching was just right.. or so

So the late exams which kinda disturbed my supposed-to-be early holidays are actually over now. Yayy! The only result I've known was only Math and it's pretty good. In fact, it's unbelieveably AMAZING! Hahaha.. Yeap.. I am happy!

Well, despite the fact that I've spent my last two boring school days ended with me going home on some public trasportation. Call me a spoiled brat, but it had been around two or three years since my last experience with those things. The only public transportation I took since I entered highschool was only and I mean ONLY cabs. But since the expensive rate is now on the everything aspects of the cozy transportation.. Oh well, I gotta make friends with those buses. Though the heat and all the hecticness inside them were just killing me right to the ass. Damn, now I am wishing for my own driver (or at least a driving skill). Arrrgh!

And..

What do you think of someone, who you describe as your best friend, your brother, your mentor, your lover.. Actually, just your everything, one day told you.. "Ah ogah ke rumah kamu! Ngabis-ngabisin duit aja!"

I truly felt like I was punched right on the nose. And I still do, until now, because those words are just kinda flying around and around and around my petite little mind. The only thing I know could happen to make those thinkings fade away were just Math and Chem and I absolutely won't do them now.

I'm just curious how he could be so mean with his words.

Anyway, the list of some fastbreakings I should be attending :

I just hope I could attend them all. It must be fun.

PS : My dad finally bought a treadmill machine! Yay!!

- synta @ 2005-10-26 / 8:35 a.m.

besides making you fatter and fatter, chocolate can cause...

I've been attacked by a strange allergies for the past 3 days. Therefore, I am now having a fasting credit for 8 days (yes, baby, EIGHT) and four left exams which happened to be Chem, Math, Islamic, and PPKn.

Anyway, the allergies came after I took some bites (no, actually it was hell lotta bites) of chocolate. It may be the signs for me to stop eating chocolate and those sinful other snacks to obviously stop the gaining of my weight. But it still kinda punch me right to the toppest of my head that I am allergic to chocolates. Yeah right.

And chocolate made my skin got dotted by some red-annoying polkadots. And made me have no other jobs to do instead of staying at my bed (I couldn't even walk to the bathroom which is inside my bedroom without feeling so tired and made me breathing so deep. Like I've just taken a long long marathon) and scratching and scratching and scratching the whole parts of my body.

Damn you chocolates! I am not eating you or your colonies anymore!

Thankfully I got him who braveheartedly took me to the hospital (even he made me had to pay the expensive gas fee, but that's okay) to be injected on the ass. Ugh. And made me got a very very tormenting fever for the next 2x24 hours. Argh.

But I love you, though. Soo much.

TSMH!
(those stand for Thanks So Much, Honey! ;p)

- synta @ 2005-10-21 / 10:08 a.m.

uh well..

I've succeeded in not getting online for what, a week? But then last night I had to check my e-mail because Mita sent me a copy of my left Bahasa notes.. Which would be the materials for today's exam.

So that's it, and the urge to be online is no longer stoppable until today. Uh-huh.

As I said before, yes, today happened to be the first day of the second testblock. It was Bahasa and TIK (Teknologi Informasi Komunikasi, or so). Both went quite good but I think I'm just gonna lean on God's hands of destiny. Well.. I'm not good at guessing answers when it comes to multiple choices, nor in creating a whatever-answer when doing essays. So I guess.. Well.. Uh, well......... ='[

And today's also my wali kelas' birthday! We sort of celebrated it when we finished TIK test. Yes, SORT OF. We sang a 'Happy Birthday' song with some instruments-which are tables and woods and plate and rulers. It was such a fun but yeah.. norak. Haha. Well it's still fun, though. And Doni was making those moves with the Indonesian flag at the back.

Well, selamat ulang tahun Pak Heri. :] Semoga makin jago joget. *ups*

On Wednesday, I went to school with a whole different look. I wore jilbab. Can you guys believe it? Me, iya gue, pake jilbab meen! Huhuhu. And today I didn't wear it anymore because I couldn't find the white jilbab which perfectly looked propotional on my head. It's a bit too tiny for those big jilbabs. Tommorow? Well, just guess. Maybe I'll wear it again and maybe not. It actually just depend on my moody mood.

Anyway, here's the pic of my look in Wednesday!

Somehow I just love how I looked more elegant in it.

Actually I have this boost to keep on typing stories I've been for this last week. But everytime I touch the keyboard this guilt keeps on growing faster and faster. Huhuhuh. Okay, okay, I know that that'll be Physiscs exam on Monday. Uh-huh. Uh well..

No, I don't wanna get out from this room

No, don't take my computer away from me!

Noooooooooooo!!

*frustrated*

Oh, anyway, here's the best topic for nowadays. My fasting. Surprisingly, I decided to make this Ramadhan not so empty like my last two. You know, I'm so bad at prayer and I hadn't read my Qur'an for quite a time. So now I decided to go back to Islam, and make the most of it. Please wish me a good believe in my God's supreme life after death. I don't wanna be tortured in hell in the end.

I guess we all do.

- synta @ 2005-10-14 / 11:40 a.m.

she was covered with sweat

Yesterday on BTA, I got shocked by two different things :

1) My SPMB Try Out score turned out to be not so bad. In fact, it's quite good for the first try out. Acil said that, too. It was 41% and my score for science is 246, which happens to be the date when me and Acil started our beautiful relationship (June 24th). Hahaha. Kami memang jodoh.

2) My binglas surprisingly sent TePe smses to me, and two of my other friends. What a jerk. And fortunately, three of us have been bounded into a long-term relationship. Hahaha, eat that you jerk!

After finishing BTA class yesterday, me, Iris, Deeta, and Dissa decided to go to Setiabudi One to watch Corpse Bride. We arrived there at about 1300 and the movie was on the theater 2, which means we have the whole 45 minutes to kill.

So we decided to find some cheap restaurant to have lunch, because luckily, me, Dissa, and Deeta were all not fasting because of our period. Only Iris left staring at us eating like we were some anorexians who were just recovered. Poor Iris, but at least, pahala puasanya bertambah lah.. ;p

And before we got seated on the lovely couch of 21, we had the opportunity to take some shots.

I mean.. snapshots. ;p

And of course, inside the theater too!

Anyway, Corpse Bride's a cool movie. It was how they made the real world seemed lot more darker than the dead world that made me muse. Deeta was the one who made me think about it more.

This morning me, my mom, and my dad went to ITC Fatmawati to get some Lebaran gifts for some people who are helping us running on this household. And then we went to PIM because my dad wanted to buy a treadmill machine. Well, that might help me re-shape-ing my body. :D

In this morning trip, I bought a leave-on conditioner, a new sketchbook (it was A4, I couldn't find any bigger size with reasonable price), and the 7th Dorabase. Yaaay!!! I love Aimond! ;p

PS : My dad didn't found the treadmill machine he really wants, so he didn't buy any. Well, poor me, poor my body. :'[

- synta @ 2005-10-09 / 4:40 p.m.

stories and pictures form tonight's event ;p

I was just got home from Jln. Saco No. 18, the big big BIG house which happen to be the place for 'Bukpus & Pembubaran Panitia Schoolympic' tonight. The 'party' was quite great, but of course, what made it felt very much great is the..

PHOTO SESSION!! *I'm the one with stripy dark blue-gray sabrina shirt. (some sees it as black and white, I don't know why)*

I told you so, the house was so big I can't even describe how big it was. Fyi, it was the place where Duta (yes, the Sheila On 7's vocalist) and Adelia Lontoh held their wedding reception. Yes yes yes, how many times should I repeat that there is a big house standing there.

When me, my mom, and my dad (they were invited because my mom was a part of the committee) decided to go home, it wasn't really finished yet (of course, you dumbarse.. It was only 9 p.m.!). Actually, the sharing session was about to be started.. That means, the party was just about to start. And I went home. Argh, now I'm regretting my very wrong decission. Argh.

The only thing that keeps bugging me was when 'those girls' started to make their own crowd. Umm.. I was, too, one of them, but not anymore because I legally signed out months ago. And the fact that now they all act like I was never one of them, that kinda made me so.. 'Ufh, who are you, anyway?'. You know, that kinda feeling which lead you to start ignoring people, just like you hate them while you don't really do. You just wanna show them that even without them, you are totally fine.

Ah well..

- synta @ 2005-10-07 / 10:00 p.m.

here i am waiting for evening

I am helping Rima to fix some mistakes on her blog. Now I'm really sure that I'm so bad in teaching people. Huhuh.. How come? Padahal waktu SD cita-cita gw jadi guru. ^^;

This evening the 'Buka Puasa Bersama dan Pembubaran Panitia Schoolympic' would be held. I'll tell the story later. Til then, tata!

- synta @ 2005-10-07 / 2:31 p.m.

agile messenger for drawing human face

I can't believe I didn't post anything here yesterday! Hahah.. finally I could get away from this thing.. Well, at least for one day.

It's all happened because finally I could work-on my Agile Messenger. It's an apllication for cellphones to get online in some instant messengers (yahoo messenger, msn messenger, aol, and icq). So it kinda made me busy with signing in, signing off, and stuff.. And yesterday I was online in y!m for almost 24 hours. *clapping* thanx so much to Kak Lia. :]

Oh, yesterday I finally went to Bintang Merah again after I skipped the last two meetings last week because of my bad bad injuried lungs. It has reached the human body drawing and that's what I always bad in. Huhu.. Thankfully it's Bintang Merah. It knows how to teach and how to influence its students to learn. And.. this is not really bad, isn't it?

Today my Dad is going to move to this house. He had been living way so far in Kalimantan for 20 years or so. I too was born and spent my amazing childhood there and it's such a lovely place but there's no way now I can go back there again. He's moving to Jakarta for ever.. Well, maybe he'd be back there again in the next two years but at that time I would be too busy being a college-girl. *amen

And what the hell is going on with those blogspots? Why couldn't I make even one page fully viewed? I can't even load any pages! Oh blogspots..

So sorry for Ty and Devi who had came visiting this journal and I haven't visited back theirs. It must be something wrong with blogger.

- synta @ 2005-10-06 / 8:48 a.m.

i'll pray for meeting him in this ramadhan ;p

Tomorrow Ramadhan's coming. As a Moslem, of course I'm thanking God for blessing me with fortune to meet it again. Such a blessing, considering I've done hell lotta.. 'mistakes'. I wish I'd have perfect fasting and of course a chance to be more Moslem than I was-I mean am.

Eventhough apparently I'm losing the first week because of my period. Aargh.

I was just watching Disney Channel and there was 'Get A Clue'. It's Lindsay Lohan's very old movie, published on 2002. And I saw a total hottie named Jack on the movie. The movie was over just now and here I am getting busy searching on and on about him.

I think I fell in love. *yea right

His name is Bug Hall. Maybe you've seen him on Honey, We Shrunk Ourselves, The Stupids, Little rascals (he played on those while he was just a little cute boy.. oow..), or just like I did, Get A Clue. Believe me, he's so cute and hot and all. Aaargh.. Bug Hall!! In my personal opinion, he is as good-looking as Chad Michael Murray but still a little bit below Ashton Kutcher and Josh Hartnett. I can't believe that he was playing a role in one of Charmed's episode. How could I miss his presence?

But he's a very satisfying eye-candy. Ayy!

Anyway, I've been double-posting in the recent days. Hahah. That's how jobless I am in holidays.

- synta @ 2005-10-04 / 8:41 p.m.

runaway from math

I'm feeling like have no life while I should be studying Math. Argh.

July,
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and
to be understood.Quiet unless excited or
tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation.
Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about
people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly.
Approachable. Emotional temperamental and
unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and
sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never
forgets.Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary
things. Guides others physically and mentally.
Sensitive and forms impressions carefully.
Caring and loving. Treats others equally.
Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp.
Judges people through observations.
Hardworking. No difficulties in studying


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You're left brain oriented! Some characteristics
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Memorizing numbers and the specifics is not so
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their physical appearance. You work better with
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know what your responsiblits is and that will
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happily and strong.
Your King is perfect. Just as loving and caring but
know when time to act. He is smart and will do
anything for the kingdom to live on.
Name: Kimiko is a word that means Noble or smart.


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Oh, mood for study.. Please come back soon or I'll be dead next Monday.

- synta @ 2005-10-04 / 10:50 a.m.

yay for me and boo for the 2nd test-block

The news is :

I was just checked my mailbox in Yahoo after some months leaving it neglected and I took a look at some oldest e-mails there and ended being surprised by an e-mail. It sent me a password for pitas account and the e-mail's date was March 29, 2005.

Gah!

Huhuhu.. How I love being signed up on so many blogging sites. ;p

I don't think I'd move there (the pitas) because first, it can't provide multiple pages in a blog which diaryland can (of course, with a little trick I learned from the FAQ's page). Second, I was already fallin in love with diaryland. Ah, ah.. Now I'm getting cheesy.

Luckily, school ended earlier for the past two days. On Friday the school-end bell rang at 11 a.m. and today on 12 p.m. FYI, school today started at 10 a.m. so they who went to school with the strong-will to be more prepared to face the second test-block must've been so dissapointed. Hahah. Eat that, smart-ass!

And here I am enjoying my earlier self-made holiday with the loveliest mom's laptop. Ho ho.

And started from tomorrow until Thursday, the school is off! Yayayay!

..Kangen Acil

- synta @ 2005-10-03 / 7:48 p.m.

i have something hibernating as my future husband

So.. Now I'm still skipping school because of my period. Its first day is always been like this-emotions are out of control, oviduct felt like being wrung, and those smiles are like going somewhere I never know. So I prefer to spend this first day staying home, updating this, and surfing online all the way to nowhere.

Yesterday I was having my first SPMB Try Out on BTA. I kinda expecting nothing from it. Not a good presentage, nor satisied feeling. I was just unprepared and late and just having a fight with Acil when I came into the class. So you can imagine how my mind was splitted during the tests. My Matdas was sux, and so do other subjects.

So ppl, don't have fight with your bf/gf while there's a test waiting for you right-after.

Thankfully the fight is already over now (actually it was over when I was doing the try out but it's still kinda buzzing on my mind then). And as always-I'm now thanking God for meeting me with him. Thanks, God. ALhamdulillah.

I woke up this morning at 3:25 by my cellphone's alarm. Me and Acil were promising to woke up earlier this morning because we both had homeworks (for him: assignment.. Oh, campus life.. when will I meet you?) to be hand-over today. It was hard for me to get my eyes opened for the first 5 minutes but then I realized that if I don't wake up, then neither will him. Hahah. He's such a hibernating creature (jk, love). So I opened my eyes as wide as I can, willing to have a cup of coffee but had no eager to walk downstairs, and then grabbed my cellphone to send a wake-up-sms to him. It was delivered but I was so sure that would never wake him up. Not in this reality world.

So at about 4, I decided to walk out from my bedroom and call him from my new protected-by-passcode-phone. I was right-he hadn't woke up. And I heard his waking voice! Aaa.. It was such an.. amazing feeling!! Hahah, it was so beautiful that I can't even describe, nor retelling it. Yay! I heard him waking up! Yayayayayayay!

My homeworks was done at five, and then I felt that I hadn't had a very satisfying sleep. It was only five-something hours. So I grabbed out my blanket and then got myself trapped under it again. I was firstly willing to have a 15minutes sleep but then when the 15minutes had passed and my celphone rang again, I woke up and found those annoying hurt in my stomach. It was a bad stomachache and then I remembered that I am now having my period.. So I decided to skip another school-day. Ah.

So what was the whole wake-up-earlier thing all about?!

='[

Bah. My period sux.

So then I was wasting out my morning time by watching Style Channel and then getting online. Maybe I would take a look at my Chem book for studying but maybe I won't. Haha. No, really. I shall read it today because next week I'd have my second test-block term. Euuw. And I have skipped school from last Wednesday until today. Yay. Bravo, Sinta.

Anyway, I am currently chosing on publishing no archive. I still can't figure out how it works on Diaryland. I am trying to make it as simple as I can so you who are visiting this and are used to visit those blogspots won't have too many problems with the archive. Though I'm sure not much will pay attention to it. ;p

Lastly, wish my period to be less-wild tomorrow. I am not skipping schools anymore.

- synta @ 2005-10-03 / 12:08 p.m.

another bombs, a flightplan, and a timezone

Gila. Gila. Apakah Indonesia di mata dunia sekarang ngga lebih dari sekedar negara dengan padatnya populasi BOMBER?

Bali, this is from the deepest of my heart, benar-benar turut berduka cita. I mean it.

Dan kenapa harus terus-terusan di Bali? Kenapa? Karena Bali adalah tujuan wisata favorit di Indonesia? Kenap harus merusak citra baik Indonesia di mata dunia dengan cara sekeji ini? Belom cukup Indonesia penuh sama koruptor? Belom cukup nasib anak didik Indonesia begitu mengenaskannya?

Nasionalisme gw terusik. Meskipun sedikit.

Today happens to be his day. I spent almost the whole 12-hours of my waking moments today with him. It was such a pleasure.

We went to Citos because I wanted Flightplan so bad and I won't even step on PIM 21's lovely cinema anymore. It's waay too expensive now. 50thousand rupiahs for watching a movie with surround system and a cozy red couch?

...No, thanks. Haha.. I think the Padang blood running inside me is sort of controlling my whole monthly-very-limited-budget.

Well, anyway. I got Flightplan now replaying again and again in my mind. It was great and worth-to-watch. Jodie Foster is always a star. But I dare saying that she didin't make any progress. I think she was just acting like what she did in Panic Room-which also the one I'm crazy about.

Back to him,

After finished Flightplan, we went around Citos and I suggested to take some photobox since we had not taken any for quite a long time. At first he was refusing because he didn't wanna spend any cash on taking photobox (see? we even have the same habit about our financial things ;p). I was too, but the urge of get captured by a photo booth's camera was really really got on my nerve. So I decided to relent and pay the most of the price (but still not 100% ;p).

After some silly photos with some silly wigs on our heads (it was a big afro curl. The purple one for me, and the brown one for him. It was so silly, I'm telling you), we decided to compete on some mini-basketball in Timezone. I won once, but the next two games was his. Huh.

And then when we decided to change the ticket we won with some prizes, we saw an old-man, an adult, playing something dead seriously. It seemed like he was doing it for the sake of his life. And when we took a look to his ticket, we are suprisingly surprised! It was so thick and uncountable.

What a seductive game he played there!!

The rest is no need to be told. I can only tell you that Timezone is a big no-no for you who is tighting your belt. It's addictive and very unhealthy for your financial life. I'm telling you. And Flightplan is an amazing movie you gotta watch it.

- synta @ 2005-10-01 / 9:25 p.m.

hormones strike back

I don't know what's wrong with ie but I prefer my diary to be opened on Mozilla Firefox or maybe other browsers. Maybe none of them who read this using those but that's okay.

Last night was kinda sux. I made a post but couldn't post it. That maybe wouldn't be so bad if happened when I'm not in the new-journal-euphoria. But since I always got the urge to post and post and post and change some little unnecessaries in my journal, it was kinda sux.

Yes, it was the connection I'm talking about.

I need a Speedy connection right away.. I desperately need it.

Not only the connection, somehow, last night my boyfriend acted like he never saw me getting on the toppest of my anger. Very very stressing conversation we did last night by sms. Thank God it is over now.

..But another thing is getting my nerve again. Argh. Acil kamu kenapa sih????

...
Or maybe that's just me. Oh, what date is it, anyway? Pantes. PMS. Welcooome PMS!

Things to do today:

• Go as faraway from home as I can. Licker-bro is coming this noon.
  
• Be good to him. Don't let hormones taking over myself.
  
• Got something done with DirectManga.com. I'm dead curious oh Dragon Ball's last chapter!

- synta @ 2005-10-01 / 9:12 a.m.

what people talked in their first post

So this is my new diary. It's not like I'm getting too genius in web designing or something. I just need some more private space for me to write down my daily rants.. Since some people I don't expect was seeing and reading and watching me by my writings on my older blog.

Not to mention all the ads which I found really annoying. Argh. I had to give about 40px space at the top of my page so that my posts wouldn't look stupid.
So I'm sick and I moved.

This is not bad, actually. But maybe I'll try to use some other blog-provider if I found another easier or has more features in it.

Oh, the layout.
It's kinda overrating myself, honestly. But I was in the mood for nothing when I decided to create it. So walla. That's just it. *i don't even know what I'm rambling about* Surely, this was meant to be made for my blogspot. Moving out the template from there to here quite need some learnings. And I'm tormented by learning.

Okay, whoever students who doesn't feel my feeling, please raise your hand.

None, right? We all sick of keep on learning and learning and learning. While life itself, got a lot to do with learning.

*what d hell i'm yelling about?*

Okay, I cannot speak, nor write, in English. Let's just tell, I'm improving my English here. There's nothing wrong about trying, rite?

I'm missing my boy badly. Tommorow we hap planned a trip to Karawaci, Tangerang. I wanted to attend the UPH Open House. Kinda curious about someone I knew in cyberworld's uni. Yes, I'm adoring her and more than just her, I love her artworks. Honestly, she's the one who inspired me to get into some architecture study.

It's lovely how we can write about anything without even caring there'll be anyone reading this and spread it out on the next day in front of their bestfriends, right? Believe me, it is. I am enjoying it now.

- synta @ 2005-09-30 / 3:22 p.m.